Last week I pulled up the drawbridge and went into hibernation. Everything was just too much for me. I'm not proud of this reaction to problems but it seems to work for me. After a week of not knowing why I was doing this, sleeping more or less night and day, I faced up to my problems. Someone suggested coffee might help, I had a cup and started to perk up. I was brought up not to make a fuss and this leads me to saying everything is fine when it is not. Now that I've come out of the womb again I can kick myself into shape and face the world. After all my problems are minute compared with those of others. "Where was your faith?" I hear you say and you may get a handbag across your head for saying it. When did faith ever make life easy. Faith causes you to face battles when you least want to. Faith is tough to exercise and sometimes the battle is fierce and you need a ditch to lie in to recover. So look at your own faith before you question mine. Maybe you will join me in a welcome ditch sometime.
First of all thanks to Fat Prophet for your interest. I see from your blog you are having trouble commenting. To get back to my assessed service. Criticism albeit constructive is harder for some to take than others. I felt a little crushed after my assessed service but then remembered I had recorded it on my dictaphone. I listened to it all through and although my assessors were quite right about me speaking a little quickly and rushing from item to item, I was actually very pleased with the content of my sermon and how I presented it. So I have decided to take heart. I highly recommend other trainees to record your services. You can hear your good points and your bad and there is no argument about it, it is all caught on the recorder.
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