Then you are in a position to help people. I live alone and tonight I am going to spend the night with a friend who has just had an eye operation and she has to have someone with her through the night, in case something goes wrong. If I had a husband he might not like me going out for the night, but as I am on my own I can do this small task without upsetting anyone else. Your life is in God's hands and he has put yu where you are so that he can use you in the way he wishes. Don't fight God about how your life is; say to him,"Your will be done." The greatest fulfillment comes from doing God's will.